Please Don't Disturb People

Just as ysterday i continue my schedule, wokring in apex and Ot until 7 o'clock, reach home is around 8++

I send an message to my boy boy and heard a news that the girl, still contacting my boy boy, as soon as i recieve his mum call asking me whether she still sms or phone him, i said no and directly getting the answer from my boy ( i wonder why my english and story like so confuse)

that girl is still asking him by sms and phone that should she bought some mooncake for his parent?

What is the purpose of this? If she really want to treat elder good and fair, why don't she automatic and bought for them?

Itsn't this abit outragegous?

Long time no see..

It's true that I am very forgetful. I forgotten I has an online blog LOLX.

Recently I start to feel like my life is getting better, I has a very good boy friend now and was congratulated by a lot of friends and family, although at first were rejected by my mother, but now finally I'm able to lead my own life.

But, on last week, I am sad because his Ex sms him and telling a lot of thing that I don't want to face so soon, I always know that his ex will come back, but I don't want it to be so early, it's only officially 3 months we together after we knowing for a year. I hate you, EX.

Well, after I find job for 2-3 months, I have a well understanding on the surrounding situation, it's like everyone is so tension over their lives and was squishing everyone, I hate this kind of feeling and I also faced a lot of interview that disappoint me, first is salary too low and working hours too long, second is during interview don't know why get scolded for nothing (by a Malay), lastly is all the job I applied even thought they put it as 'Fresh Entry level encourage to apply' but it's only a waste of time after I went to the interview, of course spend me a lot of money traveling around.

Hope I can get my job soon. I pray, Amitabho.

Time to fly~~

Well, it's time to go out from my own world and see the world, recently i has decided to move out from Kajang to Kuala Lumpur, I wonder what's make me made this decision, I just asked my bother whether he can cover all the expenses of house or not and yet he only can find 3 part time job instead of a full time job, which earn lesser than his full time job or only break-even. Which it's time of which I need to be more financial independent, I am trying to search job and couldn't decide on whether i got time to go for the school and also interview, since I'm still haven't finish yet my diploma because my last exam will be at June, 2009.

Haiz, its time to focus on both, i could not let my family suffer if i do only one thing in the whole time, i must do twice or triple thing in short period of time, because the situation now is desperate, very desperate. I wonder why I must bear all burden? I wanted to have a spoiled kid life also, why should i become different from people since i was a child?

my wesak day~~

Going to exam yet busy on enjoying the wesak day.. Amitabho~~ here are some of the pictures, enjoy enjoy and enjoy~~

Location: Kajang, Selangor

AIYO~~ SIAN

What can I do recently? Continue busy with my schedule, books, job, school, friends, bus trips, money problem.. and what else?

A bit of bored of my life now, like no excitement and nothing for me to enjoy, except watching manga online.

But recently back ache terrible, really, I do not know when injure, and lacking of care, now making it worst.. hope it will recover soon.

Don't think about the pain, it will be alright~

See you all, keep in touch ya~

Unsuccesfull

Today, to avoid the similar case happen again while waiting for bus to pick us up, I take an umbrella from school (people forgot and I pick up) and waiting for that guy make his move.

when arrive town, I search for that man and want to give him my best shot and let him taste my manliness, sadly.. no sexually harassing pressence of him..

YOU JERK!! NEXT TIME WE SHALL SEE!!

IT'S FRIGHTENING ME

AHHHHH!!! I'm SO SCARED AND FEELING OF FRIGHTEN, DON'T LET ME EXPERIENCE IT ANYMORE PLEASE!!

Yesterday, when I finished my night class, i went back to my town by taking bus, once I reach my town and due to the tiredness, I sat on the bus station chair while waiting for my 11.15 pm bus, I reached my town around 10.30pm..

The bus station was so silent, only a few of the taxi drivers around and some of the passenger also waiting with me, suddenly I realized that an Indian man wearing white long blouse and a jean, was rubbing his private area in front of me and a Malay girl was sitting beside me, my heart said :" uh oh, better look away." and I spoke silently to the Malay girl and warn her to concentrate to the surrounding area, frightening that man will walk near us and try to rape any of us..

So, me and the girl is chatting and waiting, the bus station become deadly silent after the hawker store closed and some of the passenger went back with taxi or get on their bus, left only me and the Malay girl, with several man around with distance far from us. I was so scared and caution, I do not dare to let any of my guard down, it's because the Malay girl is still 17, I can't run without her, I must do what a normal human will do when facing cases like this. The Indian guy is walking around while rubbing his anal, I swear in the name of mine, if I were have a knife or wood stick around me, I will give him a hard time! But I did not bring anything believing that nothing will happen, oops, my luck was ran out on yesterday..

Till 11.15 pm, the bus to my garden has arrived, me and the Malay girl get on the bus in a fast movement, couldn't stand the man and scared thing will go worst, luckily the bus has saved us and we actually endure it more than 30 minutes... and surprisingly, the man waiting outside the bus, spotting our seat, and starting to rub his anal again outside the bus, this time, thing goes worse.. he open his jean zip and showing us his anal and rubbing it...

I am in a deep shock and furious, I asked one of the Malay man that sat behind us to look at the Indian man, that man also shocked by the action of the Indian guy and staring fiercely on the Indian man, and the Indian man ran off.

When I reached my home, I wanted to cry in front of my dad but I believe that it will make my dad worry about me, so I just told him what happened and say don't worry, and then I told my cousin about this, with half joke she said :" you earn, you should laugh not cry." In a lamenting mood I was and I told my brother about this incident, believe that brother shall understand well, but then he replied :" none of my business." that is why sometime I found that hard to communicate with them.

Couldn't bear the pain and was in a deep shock, I tried to clam myself but I couldn't.. so scared even after I spoke with one of my friend through telephone.. I still having a nightmare, I slept at one o'clock but continuously woke up every hour, and having nightmare, I cried..

But now, I feel better, I swear the next time, he is going to pay for it. May god bless me, amitabho.

Sick

I sick... body sick, the cause is i over stress my body... now it's pay back time, but i can't skip any classes, Thursday also need to work part time, what can I do?

Just keep Stress myself.. when one person is not happy, therefore he/she will get sick.

It's just old day reflect back into my mind and repeated a lot of time in my dream, i am so scared and sad, i wonder.. is that i did a lot of wrong thing? Why you all want to control me?

I don't understand why i am sick... do you know why?

Theme contest...

Maple private server, actually did bring me a lot of joys even though i am not really attached in it, but today, i sat in front of computer to play private server, only private server~ WELL, i did a lot of thing today, zaking, papu, in a numerous number, wow, i don't even realize that i killed so many of zak and papu just in one day. As usual it is private server.

Today, before i lag out from the private server, i entered into a theme contest, it start from disguise as animal, and i success to bluff myself in. Since it is the first time i go into the theme contest, i wonder what kind of contest using theme, after the briefing then i knew, it is obviously cash item contest which we can get from shop or free market monsters, so i tried hard to bluff myself in haha!! It's fun also because it relaxed my stress, i wonder did anyone miss me? like how i missed them?

But i dropped out from second round theme that is Halloween theme, i wore a chestnuts hat and a monk with coffin cape, holding pumpkin weapon, as usual, i phailed~

My favourite flower, if you want to get my heart, bring it along~~ lol

Well, yesterday i read a cover new in sin chew newspaper, unbelieveable that our politic members helding a discussion down by a tree, so i took a look what kind of tree is that so fortunate to see their evil face..

WOW!! It's unbelievable that it is the favourite flower tree i like, but it disgusted me later because they polluted my favourite tree, so i might be purifying the tree by chanting for three days.. SO DAMN UNFORTUNATE!! But to know the tree name (I don't know the tree name at all but i use to call it yellow flower tree)is really really excited me, at least people can figure it out when i tell them the favourite flower i like. kekeke~~

So, i search at the web for more detalis... it goes like this :-

Peltophorum pterocarpum

Common Names: yellow poinciana, yellow flame tree, copper-pod, yellow flamboyant treeFamily: Fabaceae/Leguminosae (bean Family)

Description

Yellow poinciana is a very showy flowering tree up to 50' tall, with wide-spreading branches that form an umbrella-like crown up to 25' across. The stems and twigs are rusty-red tomentose (fuzzy). The leaves are bipinnate (twice compound), about 2' long with 8-20 pairs of 3/4"-long oblong leaflets. The fragrant flowers are clustered on upright stalks (racemes, actually) about 18" long. Each flower is about an inch and a half across with translucent yellow, strangely-crinkled petals. The flowers have conspicuous orange stamens and each petal has a reddish brown mark in the center. They are followed by purplish brown, flattened, oblong seed pods, 3-4" long, which remain on the tree until the next flowering season.
Location

Yellow poinciana is native to coastal areas from Sri Lanka through the Malay archipelago and Indonesia to northern Australia. It has escaped from cultivation and established itself in disturbed areas in southern Florida and Hawaii.
CultureLight:

Does well in semi-shade, but can tolerate full sun if well-watered. Moisture: Needs moist, but well-drained soil.Hardiness: USDA Zones 10 - 11.Propagation: Propagation of yellow poinciana is by seeds that must be treated before they will germinate. In nature, the seeds would have passed through the gut of a bird or mammal before germinating in a pile of rich "compost." We simulate that process with scarification (use a file or sandpaper), or a two-minute immersion in dilute acid or boiling water.
Usage

Yellow poincianas are usually planted as specimen trees or as shade trees. They are used as street trees in tropical cities, and commonly planted for shade in tropical and subtropical gardens. They are fast-growing and vigorous, but they cannot tolerate frost.
Features

The name poinciana also is used for three other showy subtropical trees or shrubs in the bean family: Royal poinciana (Delonix regia), also called flame tree or flamboyant tree; dwarf poinciana (Caesalpinia pulcherrima), also called Barbados pride or peacock flower; and another dwarf poinciana (C. gilliesii), also called bird-of-paradise bush.

That's all for today, i am going to do my last revision because my exam at 11.30 Am~~ keke!!!

private server maple sydney

Well, through my beloved jun (my grandson) has introduce me a private server name sydney, so i go and play awhile when i free from work or school, horrible horrible!! I REACHED LVL 215 IN JUST 3-4 TIMES I PLAY WHICH IT IS NOT OVER 1 HOURS EACH TIME, and also i dc as many time as i could, and sometime it's fun to see the NPC appear in front of my log in page, and tell u all honestly, the gm in there is very very active and EXTREMELY HOSTILE!!

But, free cash and MESOS LOT AND LOT!! well, it's only for de-stress, who cares about me anyway~ sooner i will be doing full time job and attend class part time, maybe i don't even have time to maple anymore because if I do that, most likely i will be working from Monday-Friday and attend part time class during Saturday and Sunday, it is kind of lifeless but i couldn't help it, i wish that i am a princess that living in the castle with a lot of protection...

Well, i never dream of princess or any fairy tale before, but sometime i just couldn't help it but too many sigh, i lived a happy childhood but i loses ton of childhood, i am longed to live dependably on others but I just couldn't force myself not be independent. After all i am a super tough lady..(or preferable bitch? cause i kind of rude in a way and not ladylike keke~0.0)

Exam is around the corner

Exam is just near by, going to knock my house door, to keep alerting myself, i has set the alarm of going to work hard and study hard and what also hard, unfortunately.. it's abit hard for lazy bug.. isn't it? LAZY GOOSE!!!

Soon to be..

I am so happy!! Happy that I not failing any subject, so far only my Business Mathematics, which the lecturer purposely fail us because we stand in his way.

I hate that but appreciate the hardship he gave us.

Another 3 more subjects and i will be discharge from stupid diploma and pursuing my degree. Maintaining my CGPA, that's what my main objective will be in the February exam and May exam.

Well, what kind of UK university should I choose? University of Abertay Dundee or University of Greenwich? Hmmm.. headache!

very busy~

It's been awhile I update my blog, it seem like recently after Chinese new year I am in a busy mood again. It's a good rest for me cause i only focusing on my study and my life.

Well, nothing I can say much, just hope i can stay in touch with everyone using my blog.. as in for my collection of philosophy in life, I had learn that sometime, when you really going to cheer on someone in some particular thing and wanted to share their burden, people might be sharing with you and that's make your life hard when the person which u cheer on is actually a tricky man. So what to do? I am not cheering the people that never appreciate me, but i will not stop cheering people, because this is only thing I can do in this world around my friends and family.

I am not a sweet girl but I am always like this, I am not fake and also not pure(grind), if you know me well, you will understand what i mean.

AHHH!!! SO BUSY!!!

maple new quest is sucks!!

It's sucks...

NEW YEAR WISH

1) More beautiful

2) More money

3) More sincere friend

4) More love my family

5) More day to live ( as in don't die so fast, haha!)

6) More people is happy around me

7) More assets ( as in house, land, car, handphone, laptop...i wish i can afford it)

8) More flying colour result

9) More good economic

10)More and more wishes

New year planning

Well, I wonder what is my new year plan, so I decided to look around my schedule book. wow! It's amazing that my exam for february is actually near by the corner, so I am thinking that if I took a week off for the chinese new year holidays, it won't be a pain, afterall I am going to fail..

NO WAY MAN& WOMEN!!!! I swear by the name of goose, that I am going to let go my Chinese new year happiness and focus on my study. Anyway, I have no mood to celebrate Chinese new year.

I should stop lamenting now.

I can't cry

What would you think if the person that you respect most and cherish, told that you are actually a burden for them?

Even though you has never say anything about it in front of me, but I always knew that in the deep of your heart, I am not as precious as my brother. I started to take it as the fact, but i still cherish you, father.

I really couldn't cry.

the fun of playing game

It's so fun when the game setting goes something like this:

terrible terrible

It's terrible that I have not finish my assignment which i need to pass up by tomorrow, and it's it that I am too busy to update my lousy goose blog? LIKE NO ONE COME HERE SEE MY POST DE~~ SOB!!

But, in the oldest post at previous blog, I has liked the Chinese poem I had had create, I wonder should i wrote them here again?

Maybe this time, it's different feeling? Well, I am too busy~

It's feel good?

Well, if someone sweet talking to you, what will you feel?

Happy?

Unpredictable?

Disgusted?

Shocking?

shy?

Funny?

or feel nothing?

Well, but for girl.. it's kind of a privileges.
hehehe, for me and my heart it's just an enjoyment.

cheer for sweet talking, but I am not falling for it.

Finally.. a wedding

It is unexpected that imsopok will come spy me and tata in wedding village, he using his squalll87 chararcter( a mage ) to spy us, well i don't wish to see him either just wonder why he so busy body?? Or maybe i am the one at faulth? I don't think so..Maybe he passing by hahaha!
























Well, people said the passion people always win, therefore TannedRanger has chases me for a long period in maple of course, so I decided to marry him.. so we are official business partner from now on ( Armoria party quest and also the Hp ring stat) It's quite fun actually to go marry in a game.

so crowded

Today is the first day of my college open, i thought it will be less people around.. but wow, it fantastic college earn so much..lolz

It's full of unknown..

wah.. i ate so much

Today my father cook tom yam mihun for my whole family member ( which it is only include father, me and my cousin, we all staying at home and my brother went out with his friend, mummy always not home and my Ah Yi working)... I cant believe i actually ate 3 big bowl of the tom yam.. but the 3rd bowl of tom yam is due to the mihun limited edition( whole package finish already) therefore i replace it with yee mee.

It still taste good and yes, i putting on weight.

The end and the start

People always sad because of the ending and lamenting it, because of this, I've learn how to appreciate thing around me, and of course keep looking back now is not helping, therefore I am always brave enough to bear all the thing, sometime tiredness is killing me but thanks god, I always have the chance to feel the new starting. I am loving myself even more.

Thanks a lot.. juju, junne and myself, because of my stubbornness, my life is always sparkling.

the last memory

blinkblinkme:" goose goose, during Christmas we go happy ville together okie?"
gosetsuke:" sure! No problem, what is happy ville?"
blinkblinkme:" It's a place only open during Christmas in maple, it's hidden street have alot Christmas tree to decorate, let's go every year during Christmas."
gosetsuke:" really? i wanna go when release?"
blinkblinkme:" soon, so it's a promise?
gosetsuke:" ya, it's a promise."

I will never forget those good memory with you, it's a thank for you always be there for me, and last i wanted to tell you that, this year Christmas really as wonderful like last time we go together, but it doesn't last forever. I wonder next year Christmas will you be there?













































The pieces around us, will stick together, cheer for the memory.